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 Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Raphael Kadushin, Senior Acquisitions Editor for The University of Wisconsin Press, introduces a story he wrote for the anthology, Big Trips: More Good Gay Writing.The story, called “At Home with James Herriot,” is available in its entirety at the Book Club for the next week. Don’t miss it; it’s hilarious.

This is a story I wrote for my anthology Big Trips: More Good Gay Travel Writing published by Terrace Books, an imprint of the University of Wisconsin Press. The story is clearly (I hope) fiction, with maybe just a little seam of autobiography (it’s actually the slightly altered chapter from a novel-in-progress). And the fact that it’s fiction is true to the anthology itself, which deliberately blends different genres (fiction, creative nonfiction, plays, etc). Why? In putting together a collection of strong travel writing I didn’t want to limit the pieces and I wanted to avoid the generic consumer travel piece (the 10 best brewpubs in London and 36 hours in Seville sort of piece). Instead I was looking for strong essays and stories that reclaimed classic, impressionistic travel writing, the kind that convey the flavor and sensibility of a place, explore the reasons we travel, and consider how we define home. So I asked some of the finest sometimes inadvertent travel writers writing today (Edmund White, Dale Peck, Andrew Holleran, Michael Klein, Douglas Martin, Bruce Benderson, Brian Bouldrey, Martin Sherman, etc) and collected a real range of beautiful, narrative pieces that span the world (Prague, Vienna and Provincetown to Paris, Cario, Morocco, London, San Francisco, Florida, Rome, Mexico, Greece, Spain, the Dordogne, and Sicily). So there is something in Big Trips for everyone who loves to travel (and probably can’t afford to now) and anyone who likes a good well-told story.

More Good Gay Travel Writing
Edited by Raphael Kadushin
Publication Date: November 18, 2008
ISBN: 978-0-299-22860-6 Cloth, $24.95, 312 pages
Terrace Books: A trade imprint of the University of Wisconsin Press
http://www.wisc.edu/wisconsinpress/books/4291.htm

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 Wednesday, November 05, 2008

"'Whenever I think back to that dreadful experience, I feel as if an ice-cold dead man's hand is stroking my back, while at the same time my brain is giving up the third dimension between the buffers of freight trains being switched.'"

So exclaims the narrator in this story by Otto Willi Gail, The Missing Clock Hands: An Implausible Happening, translated by Mike Mitchell and originally published in Germany in 1929.

Science fiction began to appear in Germany around the turn of the century in what were called "novels of the future," or "utopian-technical novels." A major early figure was Kurd Lasswitz, a mathematician, philosopher, and poet whose short story "The Universal Library" -- about a system wherein everything that is written can be stored in a finite number of volumes using a small number of signs --  inspired Argentine Jorge Luis  Borges to write "The Library of Babel." (And who knows what Google that inspired.)

For the most part however, German-language science fiction was untranslated and therefore unknown. Franz Rottensteiner, editor of the critical science fiction magazine Quaber Merkur, here brings together for the first time an historical sampling indicating the development of the genre. Spanning 137 years, this anthology, translated by Mike Mitchell, provides a fascinating glimpse into the past and present minds of the future.

The Black Mirror & Other Stories: An Anthology of Science Fiction from Germany and Australia
Edited by Franz Rottensteiner
Translated by Mike Mitchell
Wesleyan University Press, 978-0-8195-6831-1

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 Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Senior Editor Jason Gardner picks his favorite book of the fall, Solitude: Seeking Wisdom in Extremes—A Year Alone in the Patagonia Wilderness by Robert Kull (978-1-57731-632-9), reviewed in the September/October issue of ForeWord.

Jason Gardner, Senior Editor

How long have you been with the company?
I’ve worked for New World Library for twelve years. I’ve been acquiring books for the last ten.

Solitude: Seeking Wisdom in Extremes -- A Year Alone in the Patagonia Wilderness

What is the book you are most excited by this season, and how did it come to your attention?
Of course I’m excited about all my fall books, but I’m probably most personally excited about Solitude: Seeking Wisdom in Extremes--A Year Alone in the Patagonia Wilderness by Robert Kull. I’ve always loved writers who approach the natural world from a mystical or spiritual perspective (for lack of better words), particularly Buddhist-leaning writers Peter Matthiessen, Gary Snyder, and Jim Harrison. So I was excited when Christian de Quincey, a writer and agent who formerly worked as managing editor at the Institute of Noetic Sciences, sent me Robert Kull’s manuscript. Kull traveled to a remote island off the coast of Patagonia with supplies to live by himself for an entire year. The manuscript was adapted from his journal, which also became his PhD dissertation. In addition to the raw, vivid details of his daily life—both inner and outer—Bob interweaves philosophical meditations on what solitude means in this increasingly connected technological world. His goal was to explore the very things we typically try to avoid in our busy lives, whether they’re physical or psychological. In the end it’s both an examination of human consciousness, an experiment in awareness, and a beautiful description of wildlife, terrain, and weather.

What can you tell us about the author?
Check out Bob’s bio: “Born in Ventura, California, Robert Kull has spent years wandering North and South America working as a scuba instructor, travel guide, construction worker, logger, community organic gardening teacher, truck driver, bartender, dishwasher, firefighter, photographer, and professor. In 1985 he lost his lower right leg after a motorcycle crash in the Dominican Republic. He began undergraduate studies at age forty and now holds a PhD from the University of British Columbia.” Clearly, Bob approaches life a little differently and maybe has the ideal background for this kind of undertaking. He’s been giving a slide show describing his year alone, which audiences have really responded to.

Who will enjoy this book?
We struggled a little in deciding where to shelve this book since it includes elements of several genres: Jon Krakauer--like adventure reportage, armchair travel, nature writing, and philosophical/spiritual explorations of consciousness. In the end, nature writing made the most sense, but I think the book could appeal to readers interested in any of these subjects.

What can you tell us about the (excerpt) published online?
The book consists of journal entries, interspersed with interludes on such topics as other solitaries, solitude and meditation, and technology and desire. The excerpted introduction gives a great overview of Bob’s motivations and preparations for this adventure.

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 Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Senior Editor Shana Drehs talks about a new novel that’s close to her heart, To Catch the Lightning by NPR’s Alan Cheuse.

Name and Publisher:
Shana Drehs, Senior Editor, Sourcebooks

How long have you been with the company?
I came to Sourcebooks two years ago after several years at Crown. I’m glad I’ve had the chance to experience publishing from both the conglomerate and independent sides as it’s been quite an education. Sourcebooks is a leading independent publisher and the passion for books and authors is contagious here. Despite these tough times in the economy and industry, fortunately we are producing solid results. Based on recent BookScan data, Sourcebooks’ in-store sales through the register have increased 40% since 2005. And during the first half of 2008, Sourcebooks had the second-highest growth of any large publisher--we outgrew the market three-fold!

What is the book you are most excited by this season, and how did it come to your attention?
I have to say that it’s hard to pick one book out of our fall list as they’re all so compelling. From Nikki Giovanni’s innovative, mixed-media children’s picture book, HIP HOP SPEAKS TO CHILDREN, to the visually stunning coffee-table photography book and audio CD, COUNTRY MUSIC: THE MASTERS, by renowned country music icon Marty Stuart, this fall season is by far Sourcebooks’ strongest fall season to date. But the one title that’s very close to my heart is TO CATCH THE LIGHTNING, by Alan Cheuse. Of course, we’ve had a relationship with Alan for years as he is known as the “voice of books” for NPR, but this is the first book of Alan’s we’ve had the chance to publish, and we’re absolutely delighted. We began talking to Alan about the novel at BEA in 2007, and it’s been a fascinating journey into history ever since.

What can you tell us about the author?
Alan Cheuse has been working on this book for nine years – his focus and drive to craft a poetic novel drawn from the real life of frontier photographer Edward Curtis has made this a layered, intricate story of choice and sacrifice. This is Alan’s ninth book, and I think this is the one he’s been destined to write. His short fiction has appeared in places such as The New Yorker, Ploughshares, and The Antioch Review, among other places. He teaches in the Writing Program at George Mason University and the Squaw Valley Community of Writers. He is a regular contributor to NPR’s “All Things Considered,” which you can listen to online at www.alancheuse.com.

Who will enjoy this book?
Anyone interested in American history and in stories of how obsession can drive us to do great things and make terrible sacrifices. I think anyone who enjoyed the work of Charles Frazier (who called TO CATCH THE LIGHTNING ”compelling fiction that digs deep into the mystery and sacrifice and selfishness of creative vision.”) would love this. Alan has created a masterful portrait of the legendary Edward Curtis and his quest to capture the past, to document and photograph the fading way of life of the American Indian. It’s about a landscape of unparalleled beauty and tradition, about the dreams that haunt us and the spirits who guide us. Women will love the enduring power of the muses that speak to Edward and the unmistakable pull of family, and men will undoubtedly be engrossed by the hardscrabble determination bound up with a drive to do something big, something that leaves a permanent mark on the world.

ForeWord reviewed To Catch the Lightning in this year’s Sept/Oct issue, as well as Cheuse’s 1999 title from Southern Methodist, Lost and Old Rivers.

Interview by Editor-in-Chief Heather Shaw

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 Wednesday, October 15, 2008

This week, Heather Lundine, Acquisitions and Editor-in-Chief of University of Nebraska Press, introduces her favorite title of the season.

How long have you been with the company?: Almost 5 years

What is the book you are most excited by this season, and how did it come to your attention?: Corkscrewed by Robert Camuto. This came through an agent as a submission for our At Table series

What can you tell us about the author?: Robert is a freelance writer — he does food and travel writing for Washington Post, Wine Spectator, and other great publications. He, his wife, and son moved from Texas to France a few years ago.

Who will enjoy this book?: Wine enthusiasts, francophiles, people who like travel books; it’s really a great book filled with funny and endearing characters, so I think it’s appeal could exceed its genre and topic

What can you tell us about the excerpt published online?: The excerpt comes from the book’s introduction. While it’s a bit different from the body of the work (which is more focused on these interesting, passionate, independent vintners across France who are making very personal, small batch wines), it is a great welcome to the author’s sensibility, humor, and motives.

Corkscrewed by Robert Camuto is available wherever books are sold or from the University of Nebraska Press 800.755.1105 and on the web at www.nebraskapress.unl.edu. Corkscrewed is copyright 2008 by Robert V. Camuto. All rights reserved.

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 Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Join Gayle Wattawa, Acquisitions Editor at Heyday Books, in her enthusiasm for their new title, Edges of Bounty: Adventures in the Edible Valley (978-1-59714-108-6) by Californian William Emery with photographs by Scott Squire. An excerpt from Edges of Bounty: Adventures in the Edible Valley is available for one week via the link in the right column.

How long have you been with the company?
I’ve worked for Heyday for almost five years and loved every minute of it.

What is the book you are most excited by this season, and how did it come to your attention?
I’m most excited by our upcoming Edges of Bounty (November) by William Emery with photographs by Scott Squire. William is actually the former acquisitions editor at Heyday Books and a wonderful friend. He and Scott, an accomplished documentary photographer, traveled all around California’s Central Valley and sought out people who are intimately and passionately involved in the relatively small-scale production of their own food: a beekeeper able to snatch a honeybee from midair to show William and Scott the honey inside, a woman who takes wonderfully bizarre ingredients—beets! avocados! rosemary!—and makes popsicles from them, a crew preparing a sumptuous sopas dinner for a thousand Portuguese immigrants, and a “river rat” and self-proclaimed liar who gets up every morning, puts on his duct-taped-together shoes and opens a trap door on the floor of his house to fish the Delta (where the Sacramento and San Joaquin Rivers meet)—these are some of the offbeat characters that populate the book and open their worlds to—and share their bounty with—these two strangers. The writing is gentle, humorous, insightful, probing, and deeply poetic, as are the accompanying photographs. And the food that’s discussed! It’s quite the experience, and it perfectly illustrates the kind of work that we do best—exploring all things California, from the obvious stuff like the Gold Rush and Yosemite, to the lives of those working in roadside produce stands.

What can you tell us about the author?
William is one of those authors that’s so fun to describe: he grew up a farm boy in rural Kansas, studied Russian language and literature, worked as a vacuum salesman and an early-morning donut fryer, dabbled in publishing for a couple of years and added some spectacular writers to our list, and then left to pursue his own writing, dividing his time between the Bay Area, where he bartends at a local pub, and Kansas, where he’s growing different kinds of grapes for the establishment of a winery. He’s deeply curious and a great lover of all things food-related. What better person to write a book like this? Scott is a Seattle-based photographer who has traveled extensively, documenting places like Romania and Cairo, tirelessly exploring social justice issues word-wide.

Who will enjoy this book?
Really anyone at all interested in food would enjoy this: anyone who likes going to farmer’s markets, who is curious about food production, who wonders where the ingredients to the dishes served at high end restaurants come from, who loves great travel writing, who fantasizes about making his or her own cheese and honey, who loves the idea of self-sufficiency, who is interested in life in non-coastal California, and also anyone who has never seen what a field of rotting melons looks like (absolutely horrifying but also strangely beautiful).

What can you tell us about the (excerpt) published online?
This excerpt is the first chapter (“The Bearer of Strange Melons”) from the first part (“Farmers”) of Edges of Bounty. William and Scott set off on their vaguely planned journey, meeting up with Mike Madison, a melon farmer engaged in “guerilla agriculture.” Edges of Bounty will be available in November. It’s an 8x10, 224-page trade paperback with 90 full-color photographs and a list price of $24.95.

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 Wednesday, October 01, 2008
This week, Other Press editor Corinna Barsan talks about her favorite pick for fall, The Common Bond (978-1-59051-306-4). The novel by Donigan Merritt is about a “man’s attempt to surmount grief and guilt, recover his past, and claim a future” after the death of his wife. An excerpt from The Common Bond is available for one week.

I’m excited by a number of books this fall, Randa Jarrar’s A Map of Home and Michael Greenberg’s Hurry Down Sunshine, but I have a soft spot for Donigan Merritt’s The Common Bond. It’s the second of Don’s novels that we’re publishing. The previous title, Possessed by Shadows, came out in 2005. I hadn’t read Don’s work before coming to Other Press so when The Common Bond landed on my desk I was in for a treat. By chapter four I was already living with the protagonist in Hawaii and completely invested in the characters and their stories. There was no question that it was a book I wanted to edit and an author I wanted to work with.

Donigan Merritt is a man of the world and a man who has worn many hats, which is certainly reflected in his writing. He was raised in the southern town of Magnolia, Arkansas but he didn’t stay put for long when wanderlust took him to Hawaii, Iowa, Bratislava, Slovakia, and Berlin, Germany, among other locales. Since leaving his hometown, Don worked such diverse jobs as airport cargo loader to paratrooper in the Army to philosophy professor. Lucky for us, he’s also a writer. The Common Bond draws on some of Don’s own experiences when he lived in Hawaii working as a deckhand on a sport fishing boat and then as a captain after he received his Coast Guard Captain’s license. You can read a little about his days living in Kona on Don’s blog and also keep up with his latest news at http://doniganmerritt.typepad.com

In this excerpt of Chapter Two, Morgan Cary has just arrived back home in Hawaii after being away for roughly a decade. His wife has recently died, and he is returning to the ghosts of his past within the lush backdrop of the island and inside the walls of the Sunset Lanai motel.


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 Wednesday, September 24, 2008
This week, MacAdam/Cage editor David Adams talks about his favorite pick for fall. An excerpt from Our Lady of Pain is available for one week at our Book Club.

What is the book you are most excited by this season, and how did it come to your attention?
Our Lady of Pain, by Elena Forbes (978-1-59692-316-4).

My boss, David Poindexter, brought Elena’s first book, Die With Me, back from the London Book Fair last year. He was really excited about it, and asked me to give it a read to see if I agreed. The first chapter—written from the perspective of the story’s villain—convinced me that this was a book we had to do. The voice had just the right blend of the banal and the vicious, and the details of the setting and the crime were so imaginative and compelling that I knew the whole thing was going to hold together. It was clear we had the start of a promising series on our hands.

So we signed Elena up for a two-book deal, and published Die With Me to starred reviews and great bookseller response. Elena was already at work on the sequel, which she delivered to her UK publisher right on time. (We really ask a lot of these mystery writers.) I started Our Lady of Pain hoping that it was going to be as good as the first book, and was delighted to find that it was even better. The crime this time is the ritualistic murder of a young art dealer in London’s Holland Park; the lead investigator, Detective Inspector Mark Tartaglia, begins the case with one set of assumptions about the young woman, but gradually discovers that she was not nearly as proper as the superficial details of her life would lead one to believe.

Like all good mysteries, the plot is full of twists and turns, and once you start the book you feel that wonderful compulsion to finish. Elena’s greatest strength as writer, though, may be her ability to capture the fascinating nuances of human relationships. The members of the Barnes Murder Squad are full-bodied, credible characters, and the subtle dynamics of the relationship between Mark Tartaglia and his partner, Samantha Donovan, are particularly compelling. In that sense I see Elena as part of a great tradition of writers—Ruth Rendell, Donna Leon, Lynda La Plante, Tana French—who have brought a more sophisticated understanding of human relationships, and especially male-female relationships, to the police procedural.

What can you tell us about the author?
Elena lives in London with her husband and two children. She worked in portfolio management for a number of international investment groups before becoming a full-time writer. Her first book, Die With Me, was shortlisted for the 2008 John Creasey (New Blood) Dagger Award. She likes opera and Italy—Mark Tartaglia was inspired by a well-known Italian bass baritone.

Who will enjoy this book?
Fans of the TV show Prime Suspect. Readers of Ruth Rendell, Elizabeth George, Ian Rankin, P. D. James, etc. Mystery readers who like their plots to come with some real psychological depth. People looking to get in on the ground floor of a series with a great deal of potential.

What can you tell us about the excerpt published online?
The first two chapters of Our Lady of Pain are a great example of what distinguishes Elena in the very crowded field of crime writers. The book opens with a brief glimpse of our victim going for a jog in a snowy Holland Park—it is a descriptive, atmospheric beginning, and the moment of tension at the end is well done, if somewhat familiar. What is more unique, and really compelling, I think, is where we go from there—to Tartaglia’s sister’s house, where our main character is trapped in a rather probing discussion with a woman who has very obviously been invited to the family’s regular Sunday lunch as a potential romantic interest for the longtime bachelor Tartaglia. Their conversation and the family dynamics of the scene are awkward and all-too-real, and Tartaglia, polite as he may be, is visibly relieved to get the call that a young woman’s frozen body has been found in the park.

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 Wednesday, September 17, 2008

This week, Candlewick President and Publisher Karen Lotz and Editorial Director and Associate Publisher Liz Bicknell talk about their favorite picks for fall. Gorgeous full-color excerpts of Our White House and Sword are available for download for one week.

Our White House: Looking in, Looking Out, created by 108 renowned authors and illustrators and the National Children’s Book and Literacy Alliance, is one of the most exceptional projects I’ve ever been involved in,” said Karen Lotz, President and Publisher of Candlewick Press. “A treasury of personal essays, nonfiction, short stories, poetry, humor, primary source materials, and an extraordinary range of illustration, it is an entirely fresh and engaging presentation that serves as a gateway for looking at two hundred years of American history with new eyes. The subtitle of the book captures its essence; it is designed to explore the dwelling at 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue through multiple perspectives, including the views of those who built it, of those who have lived and made history there, and of those who keep its integrity as the center of our democracy by electing the leaders who will serve in it every four years.”

“We believe this is the most exceptional roster of authors in any fundraising collection of its kind. Their dedication to the book has been profound, with all contributing not only their writing and artwork, but also significant original research, and, most importantly, their personal thoughts and philosophies on our democracy: why it works, and how it could work even better. All agree on one important principle: the engagement of young people in learning about history and participating in the political process is vital to our collective future.”

Swords: An Artist’s Devotion is a 96-page, full-color celebration of swordsmanship,” said Liz Bicknell, Editorial Director and Associate Publisher of Candlewick Press.

“Agent Rosemary Stimola sent me three sample spreads of the chapter “Kings” back in July 2005 and I immediately took them home to my two sons, Rowan and Corin, who at the time were 14 and 11 and big into things medieval. Rowan said reverently, ‘Mom, you have to get this book!’ and that pretty much convinced me there was going to be a market.”

“Ben Boos is an incredible artist, as you can see from the sample, and his detailed illustrations took two years to complete, a true ‘artist’s devotion.’ Before this book, he worked as an illustrator on the Diablo computer game franchise. I think we’ve successfully lured him away, though, as we are signed up for another book, which Ben is working on now.”

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 Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Codependence and the Power of Detachment: How to Set Boundaries and Make Your Life Your Own by Karen Casey.

A generation ago, when codependence was first talked about and defined, a lot of people who were living with or relating to alcoholics or addicts realized that they needed support in figuring out what was going wrong in their lives and how to regain some sanity. So, the people who read the initial books were people who had problems in their lives “caused” by their situation. Now we realize a bit more--a lot more of us are affected in one way or another through our family of birth, our colleagues, etc.--by alcoholism or addiction. And, whether or not we’re addicted or relating to an addict, almost all of us get caught up in the drama of family life or everyday situations in which we’re not clear about who we are and what we think. In short, this book is for anyone who ever was tempted to live her or his life by someone else’s rules or values, or who tried to control the outcome of a situation by changing someone else’s mind or controlling them. -- Publisher Jan Johnson of Red Wheel/Weiser Books/Conari Press

Get Up: A 12-Step Guide to Recovery for Misfits, Freaks, and Weirdos by Bucky Sinister.

Bucky Sinister is a veteran spoken word artist who has published several books of poetry and short stories, as well as a seasoned stand-up comic. His poetry evolved as his drinking waned, and he has this amazing ability to pepper the cold, sad truth with hilarity. Honestly, I think this book will appeal not just to those in recovery. It was written for people who are thinking about starting a twelve-step program but are afraid of the church basements and Higher Power jargon. But it also reads really well and helps anyone who needs to learn to draw boundaries with their addictions—I think there is an element of that in all of us. Even if you aren’t in a program, or should be, the clever writing and wit of the author shines. -- Editor Amber Guetebier of Red Wheel/Weiser Books/Conari Press

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 Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Dali-Roo’s troubles began in the last year of the drought that spanned the millennium and sucked the green from the countryside.

So begins our short story offering of the week, “Aibo or Love at First Sight” by Eleanor Bluestein, winner of the G.S. Sharat Chandra Prize for Short Fiction.

Because of the drought, Dali-Roo trades farm work for factory work, riding off on his motorbike each morning to the Sony plant and leaving his ox to stand idly on the cracked earth of his front yard.

As if this forced life change wasn’t bad enough, Dali-Roo goes on to make the awful discovery that he’s a thief. “[P]owerless even though he understood he was gambling his family’s future, even though he believed that a thief in this life returns as a worm in the next.”

This collection of stories, Tea & Other Ayama Na Tales (BkMk Press, 978-1-886157-64-4), takes place in a small country in South East Asia. Like many small countries of the day, it struggles with peace after war and returning to the old versus embracing the new. What is different is that this particular country does not physically exist. Yet Bluestein’s canny storytelling, her perfectly imagined dialogue, her vibrant characters, both native and foreign, create a place familiar, intimate, and utterly believable. Tea & Other Ayama Na Tales is a wry and thoughtful reckoning of the human condition.

Eleanor Bluestein’s work appears in the GSU Review (Georgia State University) and other magazines. She lives in La Jolla, California, with her husband. For thirteen years, she co-edited a magazine called Crawl Out Your Window featuring the work of local writers and photographers. Tea & Other Ayama Na Tales is her first book.

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 Tuesday, August 26, 2008
A Happy Man and Other Stories by Axel Thormählen (Les Figues Press, 978-1-934254-04-2) is one of four collections of short stories in translation featured as a Web Exclusive in the September/October issue of ForeWord. With the increasing popularity in eBooks, and the growing capacity for reading on PDAs and cell phones, short stories are arguably better suited for the new millennium than novels or any other print medium. Thormählen's bite-sized tales are ideal for quick commutes or long lines.

"A Happy Man," the story available for free download at the ForeWord Book Club, is typical of the stories in Thormählen's latest collection. It objectively examines the life of Jochen, a man who is constantly deliriously happy. Because the collection was originally published in German, it is important to note that "glücklich" not only means "happy," but also "lucky." Jochen is both happy and lucky, but the two do not seem to be related. The narrator informs readers that Jochen has inherited some stocks, and has a wife and two children, but these are not the sources of his happiness. Even his morbid occupation, which is revealed at the end, cannot put a damper on his happiness.

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 Thursday, August 14, 2008

“Auntie Kadrajan” is the story of a lonely spinster who pines for a lost love who will never come. It takes place in Saudi Arabia, a country on the other side of the world which most of us will never see; the names are unfamiliar to Western readers, as is the concept of arranged marriage. However, the themes of loss and hope are recognizable, and it is the Miss Havisham-like qualities of Auntie Kadrajan that highlight the similarities between our cultures. Although we are thousands of miles apart and our language, clothes, and gods may be different, emotions are the same around the world, as is the gradual understanding of the world that we gain as we grow up.

Oranges in the Sun: Short Stories From the Arabian Gulf (Lynne Rienner, 978-0-89410-869-3), from which this story is taken, is an appealing collection because of the glimpses at a distant world that it offers. The unfamiliar settings are imbued with a surprising familiarity that crosses borders. Look for other short stories from foreign lands in the upcoming September/October issue of ForeWord.

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 Tuesday, July 29, 2008

It’s not that we don’t love “treeware,” but if the purpose of our book club is to introduce authors to new audiences, then we need to find a way to reach as many people as possible. Up until now, we (and the publishers) have been offering free downloads of a chapter or so of every book we read. The publishers have also kindly sent our office promotional copies of the chosen books so that everyone in our office can participate in the conversation. It goes without saying however, that the publisher can’t send free copies to everyone. While the author might appreciate the coverage, a publisher who did this on a regular basis would ultimately find himself ruined.

The funny thing is that publishers do send out free paper copies, hundreds of them, hoping to snag someone’s attention. What we propose to do here is digitally promote the books that have snagged our attention. Digital is cool, it’s handy—and here it’s free. But if you love the book, we’re sure you’ll go out and by that paper copy that’s been so lovingly designed from cover to cover.

ForeWord’s first digital Book Club book is the result of a happy convergence. I subscribe to textonphone.com (free), a service for the iPhone and Touch that allows readers to download and read (free) from its library of 30,000 books. I’ve read books and stories by Arthur Conan Doyle, Agatha Christie, Wilkie Collins, Haruki Murakami, Anton Chekov, etc., etc. It’s a fantastic service and I can’t believe people don’t talk about it more often. Sure, you can have your Kindle, but I’ve got a phone, the internet, a camera, my contacts, AND a library in my pocket.

So, one afternoon not too long ago, I was sorting books and reading emails, and the two crossed paths and made a star: I received a notice from textonphone that Soft Skull was adding a series of books to its library, and I opened a package with a great new book from Richard Nash, Soft Skull and Counterpoint publisher.

The book’s called The Customer Is Always Wrong: The Retail Chronicles, and really it’s a series of stories from guys who sold (yes, they’ve grown up and moved on) hearing aids, worked in hardware stores, and gone door to door with knives. We’ve all been there, we’ve all got stories, these stories will make you wince and laugh. Most of the storytellers are authors in real life.

The Customer Is Always Wrong, edited and compiled by Jeff Martin, won’t appear in stores until mid-October, but publisher Richard Nash has generously allowed us to promote this wonderful book. Free downloads will be available from this site until August 14 in several different formats. We hope that you’ll take a few minutes this summer to sit in a swing and remember the good old days. We’d love to hear your stories.

Heather Shaw

Editor-in-Chief

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 Friday, April 04, 2008

This month we’re reading The Trapeze Diaries by Marie Carter (Hanging Loose). Some people visit shrinks to get to the bottom of things—Marie Carter climbs a ladder, wraps her hands around a bar, and pushes off.

Marie Carter: If you have told me five years ago that I would be an avid student of trapeze and learning all kinds of crazy tricks like foot hangs, ankle hangs and one-knee hangs, that I’d become obsessed with yoga and standing on my head and doing handstands on a daily basis I would have told you to go back to drinking your moonshine. Five years ago I was a couch potato/bookworm with no interest in going to the gym or taking up sports. In high school I was the physical dunce, the last person you would pick for your team. I was also terrified of heights. Nonetheless I was fascinated by circus artists and would find myself crying every time I watched trapeze artists perform and when I finally took a chance and went to my first trapeze lesson, in spite of the humiliation and the difficulties of learning trapeze, I fell madly in love.

But it wasn’t just my physical form that trapeze changed. By confronting the physical specter of fear I began to confront emotional fears that I’d been harboring all my life. The Trapeze Diaries is a book based on my experiences of learning the trapeze and the personal transformation that took place.

“Marie Carter’s The Trapeze Diaries is a tour de force performance —this is a writer transforming the things of daily life, the fears and struggles and unexpected glories, into weightless prose. Carter gets at the question we’re all trying to get at in one way or another: how, in this heavy world, against our own mortality and terror, can we break loose and fly? How can we get around the troubles in our own hearts and make our way toward joy? Carter finds the answer, both metaphorically and physically.”
Maria Dahvana Headley, author of The Year of Yes

“Not only the lyrical tale of one woman’s love affair with the trapeze, but a powerful story on becoming brave and letting go.
Carolyn Turgeon, author of Rain Village

“A quiet meditation on loss and recovery…the narrator’s poignant voice has great clarity as she explores a new life far away from home while recovering from the death of her father. This is a brave and heartwarming book.
Donald Breckenridge, author of 6/2/95 and fiction editor of The Brooklyn Rail

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 Tuesday, March 11, 2008
A twelve-year-old boy from West Virginia, a banjo player and a flatulent dog set out for Louisiana in a 1959 Studebaker pickup truck. In a kiddy pool full of ice, is the corpse of Tyrane Percival. Their mission is to bury Tyrane where he is meant to be, next to his long-lost love, Leona. Young Eldridge and his new pal Felton soon learn that transporting a body that distance is more difficult than they had anticipated as they are pursued by a motorcycle gang and well-meaning bumbling police in this heart-warming and funny road adventure.

“Evans’ humor is broad but infectious ... Evans uses offbeat humor to both entertain and move his readers.” —Booklist

Red Evans passed away January 13, 2008. Red saw humor and life in everything. His joyous spirit is immortalized in his wonderful novel On Ice. Red Evans had a varied career in the print, radio and television media and traveled extensively throughout the world to research his writing projects. He lived in Mount Pleasant, South Carolina.

Cloth hardcover 6x9” | Pages 208 | Fiction US$ 19.95 / CDN$ 21.95 | ISBN 9781601640154


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 Thursday, January 31, 2008

by Jon Adams, Slack Water Press, 978-0-9797613-0-0

This month we’re reading The Cruise of the Jest by Jon Adams. The book came to me several months ago in the standard self-published package: uninspired cover, folder with press release and other stuff inside, etc. (Just so you know, we do not look at press kits – they go straight into the trash. A press release, however – a single piece of paper with book stats and blurb – is a must.)

Anyway, as I’ve probably said before, I look at everything. And while the cover was painfully plain, it was not atrocious. And the internal layout was perfectly decent.

The Cruise of the Jest

Then, there was the content page. Wow.

San Francisco Bay 3
Half Moon Bay 10
Ensenada 20
Cabo San Lucas 27
Mazatlán 38
Tres Marias 49
Acapulco 53
Nuku Hiva 62
Tahiti 76

There are a lot more. In fact, the destinations lead all the way around the world. Well, of course. The Cruise of the Jest.

On to the first page:

He was waiting to find out what Jack wanted him to do next. Jack told him to be on Jest at ten that morning. He didn’t want to be early, so he was lying in his bed, listening to the radio. He was thinking that ten was an odd time. Usually when Jack wanted him to do something, it was more like six in the morning or eight in the evening, dawn or dusk. Back in the summer, the last time Jack told him to be on Jest, it had been eight in the evening. That was when Jack told him to sail Jest down to Half Moon Bay. Jack said he would be there, at the harbor in half Moon Bay, waiting for him when he came in. But it hadn’t happened that way.

Nothing quite happens the way you expect it to, except when it does. And what happens the second time he sails to Half Moon Bay is completely different than what happens the first time.

The Cruise of the Jest is a completely extraordinary piece of classic coming-of-age literature. It is so outstanding that I’m shocked, dismayed, scandalized that no publisher – independent or otherwise – would look at it. Please, do more than look at it. Read it. And give it to your kids to read. And give it to your dads. And your grandfathers.

Below, you’ll find some questions and answer sessions that Mr. Adams and I exchanged through email.

One other thing: Mr Adams has invested in a new book cover.

Q: You have indicated that The Cruise of the Jest is based on your own experience. Could you say a little more about that?

A: Yes, my parents took us (me, my two brothers and my sister) on a world cruise. In 1961 we left San Francisco on the 58-foot schooner Fairweather. We sailed west across the Pacific and Indian Oceans, then up the Red Sea to the Mediterranean. From there we sailed across the Atlantic and Caribbean, passed through the Panama Canal, and then, after four years, returned to San Francisco. But the novel is not entirely based on my own experience. My mother kept a journal during the cruise, a journal that I later inherited. The writing of The Cruise of the Jest actually came about when I began transcribing and editing my mother’s journal because I realized that the journal didn’t tell a story—journals rarely do. And I knew if I wanted to describe what it was like to sail around the world, I needed a story. I think this need for a story is an example of fiction being more believable, and certainly more compelling, than simply telling the facts of what happened. The facts of what happened have their own place in the corridors of one’s experience, but it takes a story to convey that experience to others.

Q: So in addition to your own experience you had your mother’s journal to rely on. How much of the journal is in the novel?

A: My mother’s journal was very useful for many of the details that I used. But even when I used details from the journal, I transformed them according to fit the needs of the story. Let me give an example from the journal, and then the parallel scene from the novel. This example involves Tiriki, an Islander from a small atoll in the Tuamotu Archipelago.

[journal]

August 24 [1961]—Manihi. We are leaving Manihi for Rangiroa, a hundred miles away. The girls in the village told me everyone will cry when we leave, but we left in such a hurry during slack water that there was to time for tears. We have a new crew member, Tiriki, one of the young men of the island. Like all the men on these far away atolls, his dream is to go to Tahiti and get himself a big fat wife.

August 26—at sea. It blew hard all night and all day. We arrived at the pass in Rangiroa after sunset and remembering Takaroa, we hove-to for the night. The storm continued into the night and by morning it had blown us so far to leeward that we decided to set our course for Tahiti. Sailing under jib and stormsail and making seven knots. Poor Tiriki is seasick.

August 29—Tahiti. The pilot boat met us outside the reef and led us through the pass. We moored stern-to at the quay in front of the Papeete. Everything below was completely soaked. Drying out came later. First we had to try the Hinano, the famous beer of Tahiti.

In the morning I asked Tiriki to come shopping with me, hoping that in this way I could get him to do some cooking. But this was his first time away from Manihi, and he wanted to put on his new clothes. It seems that Verne [one of the crew] gave Tiriki some of his old clothes. I waited on deck, and when Tiriki joined me, I didn’t know what to say. He had such a happy grin on his face. He was wearing a white shirt with a tie and a pair of boxer shorts. So that’s the way we went shopping. In the evening he went to the outdoor movie wearing a sport coat and the pair of boxer shorts again. No one has the heart to tell him that his clothes were not fashionable.

[novel]

As Skip walked back, he saw that Walker was still in Viama’s, now drinking Hinano beer. He wanted to find out what happened to Eddie, so he asked Walker about the Polynesian on the Dolphin. Walker said, “That’s Tiriki. I picked him up in Mahini and brought him to Papeete so he could find a big, fat wife. I assumed he could speak French because every time I said something to him he said, ‘Oui, Papa.’ I also assumed that he could cook—he said, ‘Oui, Papa’ when I asked him—but I never found out whether he could or not because he was seasick all the way from Mahini. Aside from that, Tiriki is a wonderful fellow, the only fellow I know who smiles even when he’s seasick.”

Just then, Les joined them and began talking about the destruction of Tahiti. “Captain Cook said on his first visit—no, his second visit—that the white man had ruined Tahiti. And look here at the example.” He gestured to Tiriki who was walking by. Actually he was strutting by, with an immense smile on his face. Les was referring to how he was dressed. Walker had given Tiriki some old clothes and Tiriki had cast off his pareu and T-shirt and put on a white dress shirt with a black tie. He also had on a pair of white boxer shorts—and nothing else.

“But this does not illustrate ruin. Tiriki is displaying, like his forefathers, his incorruptible simplicity and naturalness. And before you call him naïve, consider whether his simplicity is not also a natural satire of our own mode of dress. As soon as we reach the tropics and begin to ‘go native,’ the first symbol of civilization that we discard is the wearing of underwear. It is uncomfortable, unnecessary, and probably unsanitary. Tiriki is not only adapting our cast-off symbols of civilization, he is rubbing our noses in the display of our loss.”

I hope this gives at least a glimpse of how fact is transformed into fiction. The facts in the journal and novel are more or less the same, but in the novel, Tiriki’s behavior becomes more than a fact. He is, in a minor way, a symbol of cultural conflict and change. This is absent in the journal.

Q: You have used a number of haiku. What do you see as their main purpose in the novel?

A: I knew that using haiku in the novel was a risk. First of all, I had to actually write them, and second, haiku is not something that is usually associated with sailing. But I wanted to suggest that Skip, the sixteen-year-old main character, has some facility with language, for there are times when his language might otherwise seem surprisingly sophisticated. Also, I wanted to compensate for the rather spare and non-metaphorical style of the novel. The haiku, I hope, suggest a poetic aspect that is inherent in the sea.

Q: In reference to style, maybe you could talk about this statement: “The truth is wondrous when presented in the style of wonder....”

A: I didn’t write that. Skip wrote that in a letter to impress the mother of the girl he is pursuing. In the letter he makes a sly comparison between himself and Odysseus. Homer’s Odyssey seems wondrous in part because Odysseus visited strange countries, such as the land of the Lotus-eaters. Skip says he also visited strange countries. In Tahiti he saw an Islander carrying a pig on his back, which could be described—in the style of wonder—as a land where pigs ride men.

Q: Didn’t you worry about the 60s music references bouncing off the heads of contemporary readers?

A: Like most writers, I worried about many things, but I thought I could get away with some of them if I just didn’t over do it. Mainly, I wanted to use rock and roll for want it meant to my generation: it was the poetry of teenage romance. At the same time, the references to rock and roll are part of the 60s setting of the novel, along with the political references to John F. Kennedy, and the technological references to wooden boats and canvass sails. I think that any story, except perhaps fantasy, needs to be embedded in the details of its historical or social context. This is an important part of what we think of as a story’s realism.

Q: Why did you decide to publish your novel yourself, and what has you experience as a publisher been like?

A: I tried to get published at an established publishing house, but I couldn’t get anyone to actually read the manuscript, let alone publish it. I spent over a year trying to get various literary agents to read it, but without success. I then tried a few small literary presses that accept manuscripts. And finally, since the novel is about the sea, I tried the publishers of sea and maritime books. I think this is a common story of writers who turn to self-publishing.

I then looked at the subsidiary publishers, such as Lulu and Booksurge. But the more I looked, the more I realized that subsidiary publishers mainly do the easy part of publishing, the part that I felt I could do myself (It is not hard to get a block of ISBNs). While the hard part, such as copyediting and promotion, I would have to do myself in any case.

Plus, I realized that I wanted to have control of publishing process. For example, I knew what I wanted the interior layout to look like. The Cruise of the Jest is about sailing around the world and the chapters—there are 29 of them—are named after the ports where Jest stops. I wanted those port names in the running headers (and I wanted them is small caps). In other words, I see the layout as part of the rhetoric of the story itself.

Being both writing and publisher is a major advantage of self-publishing. I think of this as the “director’s cut effect.” It is often little things, but in publishing little things matter, especially when they begin to add up. For example, the novel includes the names of many boats, not just Jest, but also the Astrolabe, the Oceanid, and about fifteen to twenty more. While copy editing, I noticed that sometimes I preceded the name of a boat with “the” and sometimes I didn’t. At first I tired to decide which form is correct, but then I decided that the two forms have very slightly different nuances. Jest is like a character in the story, so like a character it’s name is not preceded with “the.” All the other boats are just boats, they get a “the” in front of their name. This is the type of decision that I think only a writer/publisher is in a position to make.

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 Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Maryann Batsakis, ForeWord’s sales manager, has chosen the feature for this month’s Book Club book.

A few years ago Nancy Hammerslough, publisher at Brown Barn Books, sent in Under A Stand Still Moon by Ann Howard Creel as a galley for possible review. Brown Barn always has excellent fiction, especially YA fiction, and this title was great. Nancy and I have since become good friends, and when Heather asked me to choose a YA novel for the ForeWord Book Club, I immediately thought of her. I asked her to send me “something” and it took her about 8 seconds to mail off Northlander by Meg Burden.

Northlander: Tales of the Borderlands - Book One

Nancy’s choice has not disappointed. Although my tastes in titles (and other things) have grown over the years, the story transported me back to when I was eleven or twelve, reading in my big chair, under two of my favorite afghans, all through the Michigan winters. Back then winter was the best eight months of the year!

The protagonist, Ellin, is a Southlander. All Southlanders have special powers, mostly healing powers. Ellin’s father, the greatest healer in the past 100 years, has been summoned by old colleagues from the Northland to help them learn to heal their king. But the Northlander king hates Southlanders, which means that all Northland subjects hate Southlanders too.

Ellin’s father decides to go anyway, and Ellin must follow him to help. On the way, she gets locked out of the kingdom, is found by a sobbing prince, is taken to the Northland king, and heals him. Think that’s the end? Nope. Author Meg Burden, caught me by surprise several times with her twists and turns.

Ellin is tossed in prison, escapes from a witch hunt, falls for a dark-eyed Lothario, sleeps in a covered wagon, births a foal...what can’t this girl do?

The first book in a series called “Tales of the Borderlands,” Northlander is well written and well thought out. I think Ms. Burden is going to have a great series.

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 Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Idiot Wind
(Chapter One of Breathing Out the Ghost)

Let me tell you about the time your grandfather took a sledgehammer to the car.

It was the summer I told everyone I was sixteen, the same summer my family went four months without sleep. Just as the school year was ending the hourly boys at Dow walked out on management. Your grandfather worked the acid tankers back then, and he was beholden to the union, so that left seven of us--me, Mom and Dad, Robbie, and the girls, Cassie, Devlin, and Sally--to get by on $300 a month strike pay. Because my parents had five children, there was no savings account. Right away we were unable to meet the mortgage, and toward the end grocery money was scarce. We did the best we could, of course. We learned to swallow powdered milk without making a face and not to note out loud that we were dining on macaroni and cheese for the umpteenth day in a row. We knew to appreciate our mother for the one delicacy she could afford to indulge us in, the bread she baked with flour and eggs donated by the church auxiliary. Years later I realized she encouraged us to gorge on her endless loaves so we’d be too bloated to complain. She wasn’t the only one who picked up tricks that summer. We kids learned not to ask for seconds or to speak too loud. We learned to stay outside long after dark and to keep the fan running in the bathroom so our odors didn’t annoy him. We had to do these things because we didn’t want to set your grandfather off. Let me tell you, it wasn’t easy. In that environment there wasn’t a sound that didn’t ring loud as an explosion, not a move to be made that didn’t make the claustrophobia all the more stifling.

Nights were the worst. You thought that with silence would come sleep, only there wasn’t ever any silence. As you lay in bed you became aware of all sorts of noises that wouldn’t let you rest. The cedar beams popped and groaned, the drywall cracked as the foundation shifted. Outside, birch leaves slathered themselves creepy-crawly on the shingles. If you were lucky you might drift off for an hour or so, but then a pipe would clang, or an eighteen-wheeler somewhere would accelerate, and you’d be brought right back into a state of lucid, aching insomnia. What usually kept me bright-eyed and bushytailed was the sound of your grandfather pacing the house. He was doing his best to wear out his restlessness.

Your uncle was a little smarter than me in those days. He wore headphones so he didn’t have to hear the racket. All night his spindle dropped records onto the turntable beside our bunks. I know your grandfather heard that sound, too, because he often came into our bedroom to set the needle back in its grip. I’m not sure he was aware I was awake; he didn’t know what a good game of possum I could play. Some nights I would hear him slip the headphones from around Robbie’s ears, not gently at all, really, so I’d be wondering why Robbie never woke up. It never entered my mind he might be faking just like me. Then other nights, with my eyes closed, I’d feel your grandfather breathe all over me, hot and heavy. He didn’t just inhale and exhale, you know; he had this kind of anxious humph that burst all concentrated like kettle steam. There were times he would hoist himself up and under my covers, and he would try to rest by rolling his weight on top of me. This would go on for hours until I’d imagine my spine cracking. This particular night, though, he just stood bedside and whispered, “If you’re up, I need your help.”

In the kitchen he handed me a bottle of sleeping pills he’d bought off his shop steward. “Hide them,” he said. “And don’t tell me where.”  Then he turned around and started counting out loud.

I slid a few drawers out. I shuffled the cracker and cookie boxes, opened cabinets and rearranged soup cans, all to throw him off the scent. Then I stuck the bottle behind an old jar of pickled something or other that had sat untouched for years in the lazy susan. When I went back to bed he’d taken to sitting crooked on the davenport, peeking out a bay window that looked past a flowerbox and some shrubs to the front yard. I didn’t realize what a good job I’d done until, some time later, I heard him rifling the spice rack.

You see, son, the thing is, when you crave it most, sleep is like a ghost; the relief it brings evaporates from your memory, but the weight of wanting it remains. Sometimes as I drive now, thinking I can find you--having to convince myself that I can find you¾I imagine things crawling across the highway. Not dogs or raccoons or deer even, but shapeless things that can’t be caught between edges. What are they? Hard to say, exactly. They usually appear around the thirteenth or fourteenth hour when I have a hundred miles to go before I can rest. But that’s phony of me, I know. There’s nowhere I’m expected. It’s not about getting anywhere now; it’s just about getting on.

I like to think that’s the feeling he faced as he grabbed hold of that sledgehammer. He wasn’t attacking the burden of his great expectations, but something altogether more formidable: their loss. I can’t tell you what he thought his life should have been. I only saw the resentment he felt for what it had become. I do know what my intentions for my life were: you, plain and simple. And the joke is that now I, too, must live with what I don’t have. Back then I couldn’t begin to imagine what kind of indignation could shove a man to such extremes, but now, as you can guess, it’s as clear to me as the yellow lane lines in front of my face. You can’t start a fire without a spark, and my hiding those pills was the flint he needed to strike out against.

Lucky guy. I’m still waiting for my turn to go off.

Here’s how the rest of that night played out:

By the third crack of the sledgehammer your grandmother’s bare feet scuffed the shag as she slapped the walls feeling for the light switch. That sound made me wonder, just for a moment, if a frightened doe had wandered through an open door, searching for a lost fawn. Then came another concrete smack as the hall trembled into brightness and Robbie audibly stirred. I felt responsible, knowing as I did that I’d buried your grandfather’s treasure without leaving him any kind of map, without leaving him so much as an X to mark the spot. So I slipped down to the bottom bunk and stepped lightly on Robbie’s chest, rousing him. The turntable was playing the second song on side two of The White Album, which, two days earlier, we’d shoplifted together.

By the time we made it to the living room your grandmother was already at the bay window. The T shirt she slept in barely covered the fading blue butterfly tattooed to her thigh. She had to stand on her toes to see through the shrubbery, which needed pruning. It was one of the few bits of yard work we’d yet to complete as we tried to reassure your grandfather that, despite the past due notices piling up by the telephone, his world could still be tidied and orderly. I remember the smell of varnish on the trim as I joined her to peek through the window. I remember the evergreens and saplings outside shivering. A silhouette dancing in the driveway, reflections flashing off the mallet. The whole family joining us.

The girls clung to their mother. They slept in your grandfather’s old T shirts, too, and each time the hammer sounded they seemed to shrink, swallowed alive in his stained cotton. Robbie and I, we were older, so we just stiffened and gawked. Soon we could see lights from other houses flip on, and the neighborhood became a constellation held together only by the gravity of our disbelief. Your grandfather shattered the windshield so hard a wiper flipped over the car’s roof. After that, the girls covered their ears and hid their faces, but I was looking at that butterfly tattoo. You must understand: your grandparents were seventeen when they had me, so when I was younger I saw her more as a beautiful older sister than a mother. Once at church I spied the minister pointing at her, saying to a parishioner, “Five kids, out of that,” and I had to agree. Your grandfather had a butterfly tattoo as well, on his right biceps. They were matching jokes, a dare they’d carried out when they were too young to know better, before we happened. Only by that night I’d already recognized something sad about the dull color and the flattened dimensions of the wings. Those tattoos had become graffiti on an earlier undercoat of life that the grit of getting on failed to cover up.

He didn’t stop until he pounded the bumper clean off. For a time, he stared at it, and though darkness confined him to shadow, I imagined him looking at it remorsefully, as if it were a mutt he’d struck while speeding. He didn’t seem concerned or even aware that he woke the neighborhood; he just carried the hammer into the carport and joined us in the living room.

“Now they’re welcome to it,” he said on his way to bed.

We didn’t know what that meant until the next day when the repo men showed up. Robbie and I were in the yard, playing with an old chemistry set that, like everything in our lives that summer, somebody from church had given us out of pity. We watched as the men backed the tow truck into our drive, indifferent to the front tire that gouged our yard. When they finally caught sight of what they’d come to collect they scratched their heads and spit into the grass. Then they stared at us, waiting for an explanation. I stiffened my shoulders and did the only thing I knew to. I was my father’s son, after all.

“You’re welcome to it,” I told them.

After the car was hauled away, we went inside to make sure our sisters knew not to ask where it disappeared to. I don’t know if my dad relaxed at all that night, but I can assure you he didn’t go digging in the lazy susan. Years later--I was in college, I think--I found his bottle of sleeping pills right where I left it, right there behind that jar of pickled something or other.

It’s funny. Back then I would have given everything I owned--which, obviously, wasn’t much--for a little peace of mind. Now I’ve lost all I ever wanted, and I’m afraid to sleep. I’m afraid to even rest my eyes for fear of what I might miss.
It’s funny, too, how in the years since then I’ve come to admire what your grandfather did. At the time I hated him. More than frightened, I was embarrassed. That’s why I told everyone who didn’t know better that I was sixteen when I was really only fourteen. I was already shaving by then, though, and stashing the odd-job money I earned from neighbors thinking it would get me a life of my own. I didn’t know yet that being a man doesn’t mean you’re always able to exact control. I didn’t know that sometimes immolating yourself in anger is your only option. Now I can honestly say I love my father more than I’m capable of loving anyone else, including you. Why?
Because a man seeking his father seeks God, but a father reduced to searching for his son only chases after the man he thought he ought to be.

(Laughter).

Sorry. That’s as profound as the philosophy gets when you’ve only got you and the life you should be leading left to entertain.

Maybe that’s the real difference between your grandfather and me: he wasn’t the kind to talk out of turn. There was more eloquence in that one act of beautiful ferocity than you’ll ever hear in these rambling hours I’ve put to tape. I, meanwhile, am a blabbermouth. I can’t shut up, I can’t not talk, and I hate myself for it. Sometimes I have to say your name out loud, A. J., just to believe you ever really existed. It’s almost a year since you’ve been gone. The milestones are becoming millstones. A whole year, and what’s become of me?

I’ve become the Ahab of the interstates, mewling and puking, raging at the breath of a mist that recedes into nothing.
Raging about it, about you. If you were here, would you hide my pills for me? 

Sometimes I get so tired sleep jumps in front of my wheels, a suicide.

But you, you’re different. You’re a vapor, a whiff, a movement, and all I have are the leftover vibrations to chase. You can ponder perpetual motion, sings the radio, and believe you me, I do. Perpetual motion’s my spook.

The wind’s steeper now, and it’s not even tornado season. The wind rattles the truck, sucks hard at the windows. I have to strap the recorder to the dashboard with duct tape to keep both hands on the wheel. I have to. Wind is a sound without shape, another ghost, another claustrophobia. There are so many now, I run into them, headlong, all the time.

So many that sometimes I think that this truck is nothing but your grandfather’s old house straddling four stupid, spinning tires.

Excerpted from Breathing Out The Ghost by Kirk Curnutt. (River City Publishing 978-1-57966-070-3)

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 Friday, November 09, 2007

We’ve started a new book. Maryann has already finished it. I’ll be reading mine on the way to New York this weekend. Go out and get yourself and copy and let us know what you think. Here’s the first page. H

All right, so I listened to my wife. After all, I’ve been doing it for nearly forty years, I should have stopped now? Boy, is she going to feel guilty.

            So there I was standing at the corner of Fifty-seventh Street and Park Avenue, minding my own business, waiting for the light to change. My mission was to buy blue shirts, Jane insisted that I buy more blue shirts, they bring out the color of my eyes, she said, they give me a little color. My luck, there was a sale at a fancy store on Fifty-seventh, go there, she said. So I was waiting at the corner, to my left a great-looking woman in her